counting sheep, llamas, baby otters, whatever works.

Hi. My name is Hannah and I'm an insomniac. Deployment is the culprit. I need sleep and I want a normal sleeping pattern. I have tried everything from waking up at the butt crack of dawn and being a busy body all day to taking melatonin and nothing works. I avoid caffeine as much as possible but I am still bright eyed and bushy tailed til at least 4 am. I'm not among the living until lunch time or later and then bam, an entire day is wasted. Something has got to give. This frustrates me. When I finally do get out of bed, I have no energy or motivation to do anything. I feel like this whole month of my life was poured down the drain. I'm not sitting up in my bed shaking in fear because of my husband being deployed. I'm laying in this dark room surrounded by four walls, waiting for my REM cycle to kick in. I would like to make a trip to La La land around 10 pm every night and not come back until 7 or 8 am the next day. Here's to attempting to solve this problem tomorrow by wearing myself out. Goodnight! (hopefully)