"If it ain't one thing, it's another"

It's become a habit of mine to look for military spouse blogs. Thanks to lovely inventions such as google, I've come to find some that I am absolutely in love with. One, in particular, made me literally "LOL". A fellow Navy wife goes on to rant and rave about how everything seems to give her trouble or break during deployment. I feel her pain. My phone broke, I got sick, my mother (unintentionally) washed Q's camera, & my poor "Thadous the Stratus" car is dying a slow death. I've never been the one to have bad luck, necessarily but good golly miss molly. Lately, it has been one thing after the other. I clocked out in the wee hours of this morning around 12:30 am, proceeded to walk to my car, crunk the sucker up, & it began to violently shake as if it were having a seizure. Great. It got a little "act right" in it's system shortly thereafter but still, having to commute an hour home on a car who became epileptic for a moment, is just a tad bit scary. This is my 4th car. Yes. 4th. I'm only 21. I got my first car at age 14. (Only because it was too good of a deal for my parents to pass up). It was this atrocious looking 2003 Ford Focus ZX3 hatchback. It was quickly dubbed "The Cockroach" by a friend of mine. Such a comedian. That got traded in for an 03 Dodge Stratus which in turn developed a horrendous knock in the engine. I traded that one in for an 05 Ford Focus which bit the dust & here we are at car #4. I think it's safe to say that my next vehicular purchase will NOT be a Ford or a Dodge. I'm thinking, Ferarri, Lambroughini, Porsche. ;) In my dreams. Let's just hope that my poor ole' junk car lasts during my long treck to Virginia at the end of the year. I'm riding my janked up car while my Q's luxurious 2010 fully loaded Nissan Maxima is parked in VA. Party pooper. ;) But that's his dream car, he SAVED for a while to be able to get that thing, & well, I don't want to put unnecessary miles on that beautiful automobile. It really is a pretty thing. I'd love to drive a Toyota Prius. 50 miles to the gallon sounds blissful to me but it's not exactly logical. We plan on starting a family very soon & something with a little bit more room would be more ideal. I refuse to drive a gas guzzler but hey, I'm supposed to be the one who concieves twins. (YIKES!)
Here's where I may or may not make sense & the rest of this blog may just turn into incessant rambling, anyways:
The car situation freaks me out, Q wanting me to be a stay at home wifey (& mommy for a little while) stresses me out, & our living situation is giving me gray hair. I've had a job since I was 16. I don't remember what it's like not to have a job. I like having my own money. We have our reasons for the stay at home thing but I want to be able to go into a store and buy something that I want without feeling guilty or having to ask my husband if he minds. I don't want to become a financial burden. I struggle with this. He would be taking on my student loan payments, my cell phone bill, & possibly a car payment. I don't want to be solely dependent on one income. I want to be safe. I want to be comfortable. I want to be somewhat independent. I don't want to be looked at as a gold-digger, moocher, or a leech. I'm his wife but I want to make my contribution too, ya know? Moving along........

Our living situation. We have an apartment in Va but I'm not in love with it. Mostly because when I've visited, I've contemplated the thought of choking the noisy neighbors, it's small for the size, and it's outrageously expensive.  Oh & the cost of living is RIDICULOUS! Seriously, a TWO bedroom/ ONE bath apartment is $995. Say what!!?!?! Yes, believe it folks. I spazzed out too. We have a huge living room/dining area space but our bedrooms are cramped. Very cramped. I don't want my bed to be up against a wall. That's highly inconvenient if I have the urge to pee at 2 am. I'd rather not have to roll over on top of Q to go to the bathroom. Seriously. I love that it's single digit mileage from base, that way he can get to me if he needs to but sheesh!! So, we're most likely moving. 3 bedroom/2 bath would be great. Oh & room enough to fit a complete bedroom set would be lovely. So, I've been relentlessy searching on all rental websites. I'm partial to a house or townhome. Apartments suck.