And that's okay.

We're different.

He is black. I am white.



 and that's okay.

The fact that his skin is darker is one of the things I love about him and he loves the paleness of mine. Do we get looks? Yes. We get the "stank face" every now & then. Do I care? Not even a little bit. My skin is lighter than his and that's okay.

Our babies are going to be a blend of two races. They will mark both caucasian & african american on their SATs. I hope that they never feel like they have to identify with just one race. I hope they are themselves and appreciated for it. Our babies will be "mixed" and that's okay.

As much as I don't like it, I know that there are those out there who choose to look down on us because we are an interracial couple. That's okay. It does not and will not affect our relationship. With that being said there are those wonderful people who only see us as who we are, Hannah & Quez. We are an interracial couple and that's okay.



wonderfully & fearfully made

I'm not a size 5, but I appreciate my curves. My eyes are not the same size but sometimes they can be the prettiest blue/gray you've ever seen. My nose has a hump in it but it still works just fine. My "flaws" make me beautiful. I am wonderfully & fearfully made by God, adored by my husband, & loved by family & friends. I love the way the sun brings out natural highlights in my hair. I love the freckle on my lip, right hand, & the birthmark on my right leg that's on the opposite side on my brother. I'm a great cook, a genuine person, & a true friend. I'm selfless. What I lack in looks, I make up for in personality. I'm not a model but I'm beautiful in my own way. I'm Hannah & that's just fine with me.

tonight

My night will consist of:

A HOT calgon bath. *I wish my tub looked like this*  



A nice glass of some yummylicious Sangria



& a little bit of Luther Vandross to serenade me

bloggity blog hiatus

How neglectful of me! Is "neglectful" even a word? I guess I need to google that. I reckon I might need to go ahead & warn you all that I will most likely not be writing about anything of substance besides my life as a Navy wife and I how much I hate, despise, loathe dislike deployment. It is always on my mind therefore ruining good moods and good days. Seriously folks, I can't even fully make you comprehend just how HARD it is for me not to be one of those negative Nancy's on facebook every day. Ah, but moving along....

I'm sitting here catching up on Sister Wives & as much as this show makes my tummy turn, I can't make myself turn the channel. I can't wrap my head around their mormon polygamist lifestyle. How does a family with four wives and 16 children function in four different houses? How is it fair that his kids only get him in their house for 2 or so nights a week?

Kody is a pimp, huh!?! There is no way that I would share Q with three other women. I know in bible times that it was the "norm" to have multiple wives but hello, adultery! I wonder if Meri, Christine, Robyn, & Janelle have any self esteem at all. They're constantly using "this is what we believe" & I guess if it was true, then it'd be a legitimate explanation. However, it is REALLY hard for me to believe that's totally the case. I've watched the show since it debuted on TLC & their individual interviews contradict that. They seem lost & super self conscious. BUT I really do love Christine. She's my favorite. I'm not a fan of Kody though. He needs a haircut.

Speaking of haircuts, I want to whack off this mop on my noggin. I've been taking Biotin for two months now & my hair is growing like crazy. That stuff works great, almost too great. I desperately need to make a hair appointment ASAP. Anyways, I'll leave you with this picture.

Pimp daddy Kody & his sexy mamacitas ;)

It's all about the Tide!

"TOUCH DOWN BAMA!!!!!!"
"C'MON BABY, GO GO GO GO!!!!!"
"WOOOOOOO HOOOOOO"

These are just three of the phrases being screamed while my Alabama boys spank some Ole Miss Rebel booty. I'm enjoying being with my family, stuffing my face with rotel dip, yelling at the tv, & watching THE University of Alabama play a good ball game in its entirety. I think I should have more Saturday afternoons off. ;)

Rammer Jammer Yellow Hammer. Give em' hell Alabama!
ROLL TIDE ROLL! :)

changes

Ah, the teenager days. This girl right here wouldn't be caught dead by myself in my parent's house when school was out or if I didn't have to work. I hated to be myself. I didn't want to miss anything. I felt "lame" for not hanging out with friends & doing those things that dumb teenagers sometimes do.

My oh my how things have changed....

I got married & BAM "oh where oh where has my social life gone, oh where oh where could it beeeee"

It's been tough here lately. Being married, my husband being deployed, & my sometimes crazy work schedule has turned me into a bit of a recluse. Oh & not to mention that I lost two people I thought were friends. I'm cool with it though. This whole reclusiveness has turned into countless random shopping trips, whole days spent in bed, & sheer laziness. Sometimes I feel incredibly alone even though I know I have the hubster, my family, about 4 friends, & of course my awesome God. That's all deployment's fault. I'm not even gonna lie. I don't like the way it makes me feel.

I used to be with my girls almost everyday. Now, I'm no longer friends with two and for the rest of my friends, seeing them and spending time with them is a rarity. I have NO social life. lol. I feel like an old married woman but I'm only 21!

This is a learning experience. I've learned how to be okay with being alone. I'm going to be alone a lot. Q will deploy every other year for at least 3 more years. That puts me in Virginia Beach, 800+ miles away, and a 12 hour drive away from "home". I suppose I could move back home during those deployments but I don't want to. I rarely see my friends & family & I'm living here so it wouldn't be that much of a difference if I stay in VA.

I can go days without talking to anyone. I'm incredibly independent, & now I like being by myself more than I like to be around other people. That's only because, 80% of the time I'm battling with the stresses and heartbreak of deployment & who wants to be around a negative nancy? Although, I try my hardest not to be a party pooper and grin & bear it, I'm not happy. I'm pissed off at the world pretty much but no fear, I don't take it out on anyone & I'd never act that way towards anyone. You'd never know about the storm going on inside unless you truly know me or if something sparks it.

*For example, last week I was in a store looking at "Our first Christmas" Christmas ornaments and kid you not, Lee Greenwood's God Bless the USA came on. I boo hoo'ed in the middle of that aisle. Ah, really God?!?!!? ;)*

I'm learning to deal with all of these "changes". Some days are better than others. Nights, on the otherhand, always suck. There won't be any changing that. It COULD be worse. I'm thankful for the good days & for the bad because the bad teaches me to really appreciate those good ones.

Well, it's off to see what kind of randomness I can get myself into today! :)

Just because I miss her.

Everybody falls sometimes
Gotta find the strength to rise
From the ashes and make a new beginning
Anyone can feel the ache
You think its more than you can take
But you are stronger, stronger than you know
Don't you give up now
The sun will soon be shining
You gotta face the clouds
To find the silver lining

I've seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn't ever end
Even when the sky is falling
And I've seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That's what faith can do

It doesn't matter what you've heard
Impossible is not a word
It's just a reason for someone not to try
Everybody's scared to death
When they decide to take that step
Out on the water
It'll be alright
Life is so much more
Than what your eyes are seeing
You will find your way
If you keep believing

I've seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn't ever end
Even when the sky is falling
And I've seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That's what faith can do

Overcome the odds
You don't have a chance
(That's what faith can do)
When the world says you can't
It'll tell you that you can!

I've seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn't ever end
Even when the sky is falling
And I've seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That's what faith can do
That's what faith can do!
Even if you fall sometimes
You will have the strength to rise